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When you play Mad Dog, you know what you wrote down the way things work.

But do you know how much you want to do it right?

You felt it with me.

Oh, I can do that, too.

I was the one who lost it when I left.

I just, you know, the second.

I could tell you dealt with me, right?

What do you need?

A question from a from cheap perfume, like a movie sheet to a quick look at the camera.

Right.

And then, like Stephanie, give them the gift that you want to give.

There we go.

All right.

That was fun.

That was fun.

Yeah.

Oh, I can go back and watch what's happening to me.

Know what you are?

I know you are.

I'm happy I got you home.

Oh.

All right, so, we are at City Park.

Can you all introduce yourselves and tell us, like, why?

Why are we here in City Park?

That's you.

Well.

I'm Dawn.

My name is Dawn.

And we are in City Park, talking to you about how rad we are.

Yeah.

My name is Ben.

And, we came to City Park because of the ducks and the swan boats.

We're looking forward to feeding them, but that is a no go.

We play in a band called spells, and that's why we're here.

And we're playing the Bluebird Theater tonight.

Yes, yes.

Tastic!

We're ready to touch madness.

I.

Think while playing that back behind.

That one half the time that we became king and wanted to have a giant out there.

That way we can.

We can always.

We can play.

We can play.

You know, money invited while.

That's right.

Oh, my God, I to have that boy.

I like that I can say that one down, down the bay.

That was me.

And I hope that we did one day a week that we played play.

We can't.

We play.

We can't relate to your money in the world.

You feel the wealth in the Twin Cities and the food and win and whatever you want to play.

Why five meals on the trip?

Whoa.

Slow with the white wine.

What do I.

We can play.

We can play games.

We can play.

We can play.

You know, I have some questions from Cheap Perfume for y'all.

Out of all of the mental illness What is your favorit and what is your least favorite?

Oh, okay.

You want to go first and you want me to.

Oh, this was at me.

Oh.

Are you I'm Jeff.

Yeah, I am that you?

Precisely, yes.

Wow.

Hahahahaha!

Oh, it's a.

First of all, yes, there are complex set of diagnoses that I have been.

Yeah, I didn't ask for them.

I didn't assign myself.

I didn't read a DSM.

I'm going of good faith of what they've said.

The ones I don't like obsessive compulsive behavior.

I, I'm not a big fan of that one.

You know, you think it'd be fun?

You know what I mean?

But it's not now.

And avoidance sounds lik you should be able to juke move.

You could get out of the way.

I'm avoiding.

You know what I mean?

But it doesn't.

It just means if you text me too much, I'm probably going to move.

But, I the one I do enjoy.

That's stuff I like.

I think being my anxiety sometimes is kind of funny.

I think when you hit a mania, like where you get a little manic.

Yeah, kind of enjoyable where you're like, wow, everything's awesome, I feel great, and it's that type of great that's troubling.

Like where you're like, I'm not seeing the world for what it actually is.

And it's kind of refreshing for a little bit.

So I would say a little bit of mania okay.

Yeah.

But but before it redlines.

Yeah.

You know what I mean.

Fantastic.

What about you?

Come on answer the question.

Yeah.

How about for you.

You're on.

Well, I have been called on.

Well, I mean, my crippling anxiety is probably the best part about myself.

I, I do enjoy the mania.

I frequently shaved my hea when I just get to the point of just craziness.

Yeah.

I think trauma has made me funny.

You know, I feel you got to have fun.

Okay, well, I could have been like, oh, I could have played you great if you ever stopped.

I.

If you ever thought that you would die of doctor, I, you know, the plastic bag.

Put it there right away.

Oh I'm not that's built around twice the way.

Why would I set to build around me twice when I'm not by far away from the doors it's built around you.

I think in my mind.

Why would you want to look?

Medical failure to lose.

Why the other overflowing me?

You know that I go back to Costco for the trip around the two.

I drove right away all the time.

I didn't feel like I had, like I said, to feeling right, do I do?

Hey, why would I?

Always.

Wow.

What does it feel?

Do?

Well, no, she was about to break.

If you do, I could never take her.

Trash away.

Back away!

Hey.

Yeah.

I like how far away?

That you when they say.

Yeah, yeah, that was good.

What have been some of the bills that you've been most excited about?

Like who you've been able to play with.

Like knowing that you al prioritize enjoying yourselves.

Which bands that you've played with have made it worth like going like what's just been some of the best.

What's some of your favorites?

I think I was most excited about playing with Off With Their Heads, just because I've been a huge fan for years.

Cheap Perfume was another band that I was super excited to finally play wit because when I when I first saw them, Steph blew my mind like I was blown away.

And I think I even messaged her afterwards, just like fangirling and, definitely number one on my list to play with.

And I'm so thankful that we, we get to play with them quite often while we have to.

I love playing with Daryl and them.

They're so great.

Yeah.

Like Chicago.

Yeah.

Old school Chicago.

Yeah.

Daryl and Ben rival each other, as you know, on stage.

They're they're both just like in your face.

You know, you're going to have a good time.

I was recently talking to somebody and they were like, do you get excited for shows anymore?

And I mean somewhat, yeah, I mean, excited is the wrong word.

I don't get nervous.

I mean, I look forward to it, but they were like what shows do you like the most?

And I'm like, good green room hangs.

Yeah, yeah.

Like the shows where you know that the green room is just going to be like people you love.

And that's why the show tonight is so fun is like, it's friends.

Like we're playing like one of my favorite rooms in my favorite city.

Like the Bluebird is awesome.

It's a great, just historic, classic Denver venue.

And then out back is just your friends.

Like it's people that will like that you talk to regularly, o who will assault you on camera because the host told them to do so.

And they didn't thin about the repercussions of that, and they didn't think, oh, maybe he's going to retaliate when I'm not expecting it.

And they don't think about that.

And oh what's going to happen tonight?

Like what is he goes before us?

What's he going to say.

You know there's a lot of like X factors in there.

But as far as band we played with Hot Snakes, that was pretty amazing.

Bouncin Souls was a big one, you know?

I mean, I still hea bouncing soul songs and tear up, you know, like, from being a teenager and just, I don't know, those were so we've been fortunate to play with cool bands, but I get most excited about just selling out an amazing venue with good friends who I will never be playing time.

Oh, terrible things I could never be till the day I die.

But it which just for your pride I keep on pushing as my pride and keep on saying there's no time like you got your shit.

That's my pride.

What should I do?

Let me know I hope that you'll be.

I was probably getting that.

No, I can't tell from my bones.

Right.

Will only ever play tonight.

I. I keep on pushin past my pride, thinking, okay, if there's no time, I keep on pushing.

Yes, I love I.

This goes out to any of yo that are older, and you continue to make art long after people tell you you should.

This is how it goes.

Shake it.

I keep on pushing past my pride.

That's all it is.

Try it with us.

I keep on pushing past pride.

Pride.

Last.

Go!

Let go I keep on pushing past my body.

Don't push and I keep on pushing.

Don't I keep on pushing past my why.

I won't keep waiting.

And I want to wait.

And on I keep on pushing past my body for pushing, to keep pushing.

I keep on pushing past my bra.

I want to play.

I want to play on.

I feel like you have such dynamism and energy and I just power up there.

Where does that come from?

Like how how do you.

What's going on in your head when you're on stage?

Because from that, fro the audience, you just look like Grace Jones or something.

Oh my gosh, that's a huge compliment.

Honestly, I think of myself as like a little girl version and like what I wanted, what I wanted to see and like how I want somebody to look at me.

And if I'm able to, you know, inspire a little girl who is, you know, nervous or worried or getting made fun of and, you know, kin of giving her that confidence.

I that's kind of how I like my daughter is going to come tonight and she's turning 13.

And so just knowing that she's in the audience like watching me, I want to make her proud.

And I want her to see that we are strong and we belong there next to dudes.

Yeah, I, I'm going to answer some for my opinion.

And Don or Deedee, a we as you're known in the band, I think you've been preparing for this your whole life, like you were in theater and you playe you were playing in bands prior, to playing in spells.

And so I think, like you've trained yourself to do this as well.

Like I think there's a part of this that is you're you're a professional, like the look you look the way you do on stage because you have built yourself to do that.

And that's like, common.

Yeah, that's a common thing.

I'll be like, you.

Like I remember like when you first started playing I was like, before we play, I. I won't swear, but I'd be like, this is your band.

This is your band, too.

Like, I'd be yelling at you, you know like trying to get you pumped.

And I think you've, like, found that over time.

Through your songs, did you find your own feel to propagate for this?

Is this that you wrote about?

You talk more with your daughter to play with that this is how it might sound and how it might sound.

May sound revised.

Sound may through the grass to go baby.

Doing the stabbing with your head on the table with the liars.

Those are those from the thunderclouds that.

You set your eyes on as you bring it back to your life.

But the feeling with you.

But I looked at the sound.

Rashida South, better covered by the south tower by South.

And through the cracks in your face.

Your to the south by the south bend down by the south.

Bend down.

We play south bend.

The south with and.

That with your wrist.

The bone in your arm is true.

Whoa!

It's real.

With the blade.

Push through the absolutes.

And life can't change that down south.

Without the south and without my south.

Bend.

To go right through the cracks.

Right through time.

Cracks at all the south at night.

With your performances like a lot of times with spells, you all will make a poin of getting out in the audience or sometime bringing the whole thing to it.

Can you talk about the politics of such a thing and why?

That's wh you feel like that's important.

So when we starte playing in spells, there was a there was a want and a desir to play on the floor of venues.

So I'm not on the stage.

So like we started just by playing like even if the venue, like we played at the Gothic theater here in Denver and w played on the floor in front of, and to me, that was like a thing of, like going back to like old school punk and hardcore shows that were in VFW halls or Eagles Club or, you know, just anythin you could rent out at that time.

And to me, I that was like the most important thing to me as a teenager.

And as a kid was like, you're like, right here.

Like, I can I can like touch yo like you're so close, you know?

And it also felt like they were like when a band did that they were one of us, you know?

And like, I think that that was like a big thin that we tried to do with spells.

And we've always tried to do as like.

And I'll say that from time to time, this belongs to you.

Like, this is like w this like if you come to a show, you're part of the show.

This is yours as well, you know.

And that's a big part of what we all believe collectively as a band.

Like like there's a collectivism to this.

And I think some of that got lost as punk and hardcore gre in popularity and pop culture.

I think the fact that this is, a collectivist like this is this is a collective, you know, like we all work together to make these shows happen and then we all get, I, I love when it being in the mix and it's just, yeah, they're the best shows and the people's faces, like they're there and they're smiling and they've got their arm around you and you're bouncing like that's the best.

That's it's it's I don't like throwing around new agey things, but it's spiritual for sure.

It's good to see you discover someone.

Say it to drive my own demise.

Some say I never heard of it, but they like to say I do.

To see this, to be them, to say I feel like I went on my walk.

I feel like, oh God, what am I here?

What am I, what am I feeling?

What am I, what is, what am I?

My brain?

To say.

To see someone say like I go to my work.

I don't go in a circle.

But everything I do to see this coming in my head.

I was surprised that you neve make any changes to your mind.

What am I doing wrong?

My mind right now, my brain tonight.

Like, what am I here?

What am I writing?

I think I could maybe to the point of hey, maybe you are too.

But, to be honest, to all of us, it's gonna be up to the board.

You can go into what I do and show you up to what I might find out what in my head.

The writing up, writing into my brain, the writing.

I love how I love my body, I love writing, I might write what I love now I.

So what ways do you feel like punk is poised to speak to this moment, and what do you think it can do?

I think that we're so divided right now, and there's so much hate and there's so much anger in the world.

And I think that, having a collective and being at a show and listening to this music mean something different to everyone.

And I think that bringing everyone together, for one thing, and letting loose and getting people out of their comfort zone and letting their guard down and just allowing them to have fun for 30 minutes at a time i what people need to do more of.

I think that, you've seen a massive resurgence in, I mean, hardcore especially has made a, like a huge rebound.

And I think even in punk rock, like, I think it has been a big rebound in that because I do think the message is still important.

Fast rock and roll was always has always bee my personal favorite conveyance of anti-establishment and anti fascism and, anti dictatorshi and pro human rights movements.

And I think that there it is, there's been a massive resurgence in it because, there are a large portion, there is a large portion of this population that feels like they are marginalized and they're being trolled by another portion.

And I think the music is back in the message and the vitriol is back, because people are trying to regain and reclaim some of their strength and their power and we're being reminded when you go to a show, you're you aren't alone.

Like when you sit in a venue with 220 or like tonight with 400 and some odd people who are very close to how you feel, and they they share the same passions about the direction the world is going in.

If reinvigorates you because we sit on our phones, we're at home in our computers, these little cells and pods in our hives.

But when you get back with everybody, you're like, no, no, no, no.

There are other people that feel this way.

There's a lot of other people.

And I think punk rock has always been great at reminding people that you are not alone.

Like you were totally not loving this thank you spells.

Yeah, it's been amazing, I appreciate it.

Love you always.

I have never be angry alone.

They spells.

Yay!

Let's do it.

She got me a bad night.

I took a quick shot.

I want to, I don't know where to start.

And I'm pleased to be done.

All right, I know, I know, you think that you need your best.

Hold on.

You know you can trust me.

I went on my way.

And I don't know where.

Now I'm at home, I still swing I you it like this.

And I know you went like this.

Why do you live like this?

And then how do you let.

Why is the way you're not great?

Why not suck it up and say I mean, I gave one up.

Hey, hey, hey.

I was a little high up waiting for your good, and I was not good enough.

80%.

It's good enough.

I tried to be up working.

No, but I had already expired.

I it up girl.

Where I barely more than you asking me.

What are you with heritage?

What are your plans for this land?

Now?

I want a way that I want for peace.

The tide is back for it.

How do you work like this?

And how do you like this?

How do you flip?

I get it.

How do you live?

How do I play that?

Like a way to die.

Pray that God.

And I'm so proud to die up.

That I'm down.

And I came on.

Hey hey hey hey.

Who I fell by the way I thought I love know, but I 80%.

It's good to know.

But I tried without drinking.

Oh, why?

I broke my back.

Because I was never, oh, 80%.

Seems good enough to change God.

And I'm done for now.

And.

Oh, wait, wait.

Fact that I got out of that got a man and I gave up.

Hey hey hey hey, what's that line up the way, it's way.

I'm gonna.

I'm gonna work up it.

Work that can't start it up.

Oh, wow, I owe you.

Well, thank you all.

Thanks.

For my time.

I got nothing but time.

I got nothing but pride.

I got nothing but time.

I got to break out.

I got to live to spend, I give away.

Nothing.

What's up?

I got nothing but time.

I got nothing but time I got nothing but time.

I got nothing but time.

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